Death Shadows
Sometimes, we feel like torrents of waters are
running over our heads. Trouble stalks
our every move. Like Jonah, we feel as if we have been swallowed up and wonder,
when- we will be spit out. A great gulf
appears to be between people that try to add a little comfort. We look in the faces of Doctors, nurses,
friends, family and others to give us hope.
To lift us up, from the destruction, that has taken over our lives. Jaws of death grips our love one with such a
strong grip. We cry to God, He feels so
far away. Peace comes on shuffling feet
and so quickly evaporates. Trouble wants
to rip at our souls. Darkness snuffs out
the light. Day after days of turmoil
backs up a little and the time you think "O, I can get a good breath",
only to have the steps of death march in again.
You are left bleeding, bruised, and wondering why? After, awhile you feel more dead than alive. The darkness feels like the dark plague of
Egypt.
Some brave souls go into the valley with heads held
high, but soon like the rest of us. Their heads are lowered, creeping along,
turning at every noise. The Valley of
the Shadows delights in pushing human courage and confidence to the edge, then
shoving them over. The cold in the
valley pushes you onward. Job lived in the valley for about a year. It is talked about in the Book of Job more
than anywhere else in the Bible. He said
"I wish I had died before any eye saw me.
If only I had not come into being, or had been carried straight from the
womb to the grave".
The valley leaves us second guessing our decisions
and worse second guessing God. We never
enter the valley on our own, nor are we ever abandoned in it. Too many doubts
and fear will overtake you. He promises
to be with us, whether we feel Him or not.
He has promised to never leave us alone.
We come slowly out of the valley and can see His foot prints have been
there all the time. Times
we felt the prayers being offered up for us.
Other times we struggled to keep going.
